Friday, August 29, 2008
   fendi, me, betty, nas, lea, in white, azhar, next, nas boyf, next i forgot his name, next alfifi my date. ( kill him ah!) haah. jkjk i look ugly. retarded on that day. sick mah. it was deep & it is still deep.. thats why its hard fer me to day go.. Saturday: left home at 0245. went to meet lea. nas, alfifi, fendi, azhar, & the rest i forgot their names. -.- waited fer lea, fer an hour. lucky her, i was nice that day as i was sick. hehe. didnt want to go out that day as i was fucken' sick. terrible. but, because YANA set me up. (blind date thingy) i went out as not to dissapoint them. how nice of me. ahah, wth i know. so aft lea reached. azhar, my god, gave sunflower to lea. aww. touching drama scene man. then, all of us walk aimlessly. with no sense of direction at all. haha. whatever, finally, we found a spot to lepak. i wanted to leave & meet kyn bby. but fer the sake of that boy, alfifi, i stayed. but, aft i went 7 eleven to get some things with the girls, he was gone. without saying goodbye. bitch, was so pissed. but lucky i was, the girls, betty, nas & lea. they cheered me up indirectly. we decided to club bby! boys, they went drinking, girls, was on the dancefloor like nobody's business. dancing was fun. betty was a good dancer. trust me. nas too. ala, everyone also good la! hahah. aft club, went home. reached home at 1am plus. yea. early right? well, smth cropped up. you dont need to know. heheeh :)) sunday: satyed at home the whole day. as i was fucken' tired. & i was PMS-ing the wholeday. (premenstrual syndrom) i was so fucken' pissed at idk what?! k shall not talk abt it. wed: i fucken' hell curl my hair. i miss my cute hair. ;(( dont get me started omg. i am sooooo sad. lucky i was, classmates, sabby, & izoul was nice. they didnt make fun of me. thanks hunn's. :)) aisha was so irritating. & again, lucky she was, i was nice & patient on that day. or i would just jump on top of her & kick her like a fucken' ball. achmad was mean too. okay, im pms-ing again. & i teared when achmad & the gang sang the secondhand serenade song. wtf seh allie. nonsense. stop it allie, stop it. bby i miss you. im gonna see you tmr. teachers day. all i ask fer is, fer me to lean on you. :( sad. cant move on. help? sat, baybeats bby! wooooooooooooooh! cant wait cant wait. sunday. club down to playclub with asfa & liza & the rest. :)) woooooooooohooooooooooo. mon to wed, i've got a ferry to catch to batam with classmates. so bye bye fasting. i aint gonna fast on those three days. :)) hahaha. i am so gonna tire myself out. so aft the batam trip, i will just sleep during the fasting days. :)) i'm sorry its hard fer me to accept just anyone. :(( i am very hassle. all i need is fer one guy, to prove to me that they are all not the same. :( - i would need a guy, who cuddle & tickle me on the tummy when i'm feeling low. - i would want a guy to listen to me when im feeling low. - i cry/get sad alot. so its your business how to cheer me up. - i would want a guy to understand me & will not stop me from doing anything good. - i would want a guy to prove to me that, they can stay faithful. - i would want a guy who love me fer who i am. & not fer what im not. - i would want a guy who doesent give a shit abt my looks. allie, troublesome right? so dont think that you can make me happy uh! & i cant get over a guy fer a year. would you help me move on? no, i know. just shut up. SHUT UP! retarded. they are all the same, flirty boys. if anyone prove to me that they are all not the same, then, kudos. :) ps: yanaaa nak club ehh? november keh? Labels: cheer me up please., somebody Friday, August 22, 2008 fuck you, bitch. I hate you. There's a limit to my patience, but you've overdone it. Congratulations. you've finally able to stab me in the back. Please do not pester me anymore. You said that, you trust me the most. you said that you have no friends at all. so there i was, i was there beside you when evryone hated you. i was there when you were in trouble. i was there everytime you needed me. bitch, i hate you. should've listen to everyone. that you're just one ugly shit that backstabs all of your friends. including your true friends. dont talk to me. cause i dont want to hear you. dont pester me, cause i might just kick your ass. fat slut. out with girls, lea, nas, & yana this saturday. these lovely girls go & blind date me with idk who on this sat. holy shit! its not gonna work. trust me. my mind will always, and always be on you.. then maybe at abt 8 or 9 plus, i'll meet my lovely usuals, kyn, asf, nurul, alep & the rest. & fuck, i'm sick. i'm having, fever, flu & i cant stop coughing. cb. evrytime im sick, its you i think. memories flashback. you used to take care of me when im sick. you used to pamper me more than ever when im sick. "now you go sleep k?" "feeling better now?" "take your medicine alr?" "you wake up alr?" "eat strepsils k?" "saty at home k. dont go out." i miss you. alot. i can just go insane now. i miss you terribly. i cant let go. i cant move on.. :(( :(( things to do: 1) shop fer the new clothes. 2) go threading with mum. my fucken' eyebrow look like marcus's. haha. 3) what should i wear to playclub? shit. need to think. 4) get well soon. Soon enough, you were the world to me.Do you see how much I've fallen deeply, right after you left.I realised how much you meant to me.Time was a factor, but it was nothing.Nothing compared to the love so deep.What am I suppose to do when my heart's not letting it go? & It've been more than 10 month without loving you any lesser.. I need you badly. ='( Wednesday, August 20, 2008      why cant you see how much i need you? come back. please got lighter then no cigg. haha   cant let goo. dont leave me hangin' on.      you kept me waiting fer you.  Sometimes when we fight, I think maybe I, Should just let you leave and push you out of my life. But I don't decide, cause I know that I, just can't survive without you. And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one. Even through the rain it's clear, your the one I want. And no matter how we fuss and fight boy, you should always know, i just can't stop loving you. thats why i cant say go. Friday, August 15, 2008 desperate i'm calling out your name.. can you hear me? what i need now, is someone like you.. just this morning i was laughing over small/silly little things. but now, i'm hurting. guess laughter & happiness dont last forever. ergh, it feels like somebody just rip off my heart. too painful. this is tooooooooo painful. no, no more tearing. tears have gone dry. i know this is gonna happen one day. but i still cant face/accept the fact. it is very painful when i see you taking jbkfhgyughubuy together. haveta face this by myself. i am strong. yes, i am. PS: happy pills, meet me tmr. please. gonna club down to playclub this 31 august yaw. hehe. woooooooooh! Labels: i cant. dont force me. i cant Thursday, August 14, 2008 damn right, she's high. idk why. but i feel like laughing all the time now. i laugh when i see ppl cry, i laugh when i see ppl go bananas, i laugh when i see broke ppl, i laugh when i see couples breaking up, i laugh when i see my step father face, i laugh when i see ppl sleep, i laugh abt almost evrything. smth wrong abt me la this week. okay nuts. cant believe bella ask me the stupidest question ever. bella: i saw your friendster pic. with the tube one. me: oh. then? bella: i want to ask. me: yea? bella: hahahahhahahah, what kind of bra you wear ah? me: OHMYFUCK! wth you thinking?! hahahahha. bella: you see i got this tube dress, then idk what bra to use. me: *explaining & stuff* noob eh bella. stupid. haha. anyways anyways, anissa you better read this post. (aft you embarrassed me, so here's my turn) anissa, she simply loveeeeeeeee will.i.am! she turns horny when she hears will.i.am voice. anddddddddd,,,,,, on top of that. she love to fart ah. anissa: you listen you listen! me: FUCK YOU! cb ah you. both: *laughing like omg fucken' loud* ms sophia: girls! stop laughing! me: HAHAHAHAHAH. anissa FART! anissa: cb! babi ah you. ms sophia: HAHAHAHHAAH. i'll find more things to embarrass you. wait & seeeeeeeeeeee. ahahhaha. you see you see, i'm starting to laugh again. wtf. calm down bitch calm down. haha. anyways, out to idk where this saturdayyyyyyyyyy. standard uh saturday. *happy pills* PS: yay! joleen wants to bring me to cluuuuuuuuub. joleen wants to bring me to cluuuuuuuuuuub. yeabby! Wednesday, August 13, 2008  na-uh, you dont want to see me like this anymore right? then help me. be there fer me.i'm fucken' sick of ppl who ask me fer cigg. i'm sick of watching my friends drink/smoke infront of me. i'm sick of ppl asking me whether i smoke/drink. yes, i used to smoke/drink. & fuck, its like damn hard to stop smoking/drinking. ya know? stop tempting me by offering me cigg/liquor please. you know once i take a shot, i can't stop? stop being an ass & offer me those stuff k. stop tempting meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! i nd this person encouragement. but jfkasjlfhkjdk not there. & darn i feel like puffing now. throat, you're such a bitch! k k k i cant resist anymore. this is too hard. dee, lets go drinking!! on second thought, alamk, dont want ah. but i cant resist. ohmyfuck. how? help? joleen, club? achmad, ciggs? dee, drink? bitch, sniff? hah, hell no. look me in the eyes, & you'll see that i'm not happy.. look me from far, & you'll see me imagining myself with you.. this year, birthday means nth at all. all i wish fer is to spend the day with you. & its like gay fuck cb. impossible right? all i wish fer my birthday is you. i am so not looking forward to my birthday. i dont wish fer time to pass by. i know, i'm nth but trouble in your eyes. i know that i am such a pain in the ass. i know that you still think that i shouldn't be in love with you. i wont make life hard fer you anymore. i wont bother abt you anymore. can i? trust me i cant. ppl says: asf: just forget him. dont wait fer a guy who make you suffer until like this. me: errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. ppl says: bel: he's so mean like that. wtf. me: i'm used to him. bel: hais. ppl says: anissa: how long are you gonna wait? me: idk. dont ask. anissa: how long alr? me: almost 11 months i think. anissa: tsk tsk. you wont get over him. trust me. me: ya right. anissa: make it one year. me: fuck you! im tryna get over him. then you encourage me. anissa: hahah. ppl says: she: get over him. he dont love you at all. me: ahhhhhhhhh. she: get to know this guy & forget him. me: eww, i dont like him at all. eeeeeeeee. & i cant forget him just like that. she: then, slowly try to get to know this guy. me: i'll try. ppl says: she: hey are you single? me: yea. as ever. she: intending to get one? me: *shit what to say* err, not sure. she: huh? ppl says: anissa: what if he wants you? what abt jkfnjdakf? me: shit another of this question. fer fuck sake, i cant get over him. & if i go on with other guy. i'll only hurt him. cause i dont love him at all. & my mind will be at jfndjfhjdf all the time. ppl says: a: he likes you. m: yes he does. me: errrrr, how should i say? i couldnt get over someone. a: shit! i go tell him now. m: confirm heartbreak. me: hais. ppl says: s: why never tell me earlier? me: i was afraid that you might might be able to take it? s: you've hurt me. * cries * me: im sorry. i thought i could get over him. shit idk what to do now. i'm so fucken' lost. PS: anissa just lovvvvveeeeeeee to embarrass me at her blog. i'll find smth to embrrass you back! ahahahah. you wait eh enissa. Tuesday, August 12, 2008  busy tryin' clothes, i busy taking pictures. haha things fer the day. i just realised how fat my face is. candid. really. i wasnt ready. but i was smiling? wtf. ugly. anissa my boo. hahahah eyeliners she's the babi, i'm the fucker  aunty kpo ah.   meet my new friends   oh allie retarded. friday: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDYYYYYYYYYY! :D went dad's hse to celebrate his birthday with him. this is what happens when parents live in two diff hse. i must run here & there. poor me. whatever. saturday: bus-ed to winnie hse to take smth from her. then walked to bukit batok interchange. train-ed to woodlands to meet fionn & anissa. both of them were fucken' late AGAIN! haha. then train-ed to town. fionn wanted a makeover as she dont want to look like ah lian. so there i was with anissa. & i can just die of walking as fionn dont know what she wants. we kept walking from fareast to wisma, from wisma to lucky plaza, from lucky plaza to fareast again. & it keeps repeating. hahaha. bitch ah you fionn make me walk. haha. anyways, saw jeremy nicholas AGAIN! i heard somebody whisper my name, i thought it was like ghost or smth. so i turned then it was jeremy nicholas. & whats worst, i was tryna rap "ridin dirty" song. it was damn embarrassing. but i covered my embarrassment well ah. i dont think he heard anyway. but if he did. then whatever. haha. saw him twice a day. one was at lucky plaza, second was at wisma atrium. me: *tryna rap with anissa* jeremy: djfhdjkfhuisdfhsdfh me: eh hi! jeremy: *smiles* me: eheh * tapping on fionn's shoulder* jeremy ah! theeeeeeennnnnnnnn, aft fionn bought smth that she like, (that doesent look like ah lian) we train-ed to city hall to meet has. but i didnt meet her. i went to meet my new friend. lea :) fireworks was hellaofashit! damn crowded. & i remembered now, that on last year's new year countdown, i swore that i wont go to any fireworks thing again without somebody take care of me. ya know ppl touching & stuff. IT WAS DAMN SQUEEZY PLS! meet my new friends: nas, lea, yanaaa, ain & the rest. i forgot their names. hahaha. sorrayyyyyyyyyyy. hang out with them pretty much. went home at idk what time with lea & ain. the rest went drinking. nas ton sehh. haha. met: suhaimi, achmad, izwann, skoot, eriana, qis, magnum force cheerleaders, who else i saw? achmad: you got cigg? me: sry i dont smoke anymore. achmad:why? me:police case. then stop fer the time being. achmad: really? sunday: lea called my early in the morning. i was damn sleepy so i didnt pick her call up. ahahah. then went hosni "kendarat". damn tired. monday: stayed at home the whole day. my itchy fingers couldnt resist but to cut bangs again. bang me. fuck. ugly. shit.                                         k k k im sorry if your com lack cause of my pictures. hahhahaahahah. anyways anyways went gig on idk which saturday at dover with pz, bella, & anissa. so here's the pictures. |
me is allie. 16 going on 17.
18/08/1993 is the birthdate. I don't own any tagboard, anything just e-mail me at al-lee93@hotmail.com
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